I, fortunately, am one of those stutterers who manages to get somewhat fluent periods. During group therapy sessions I have met fellow stutterers who have a much more difficult time expressing their thoughts than I do. I, even as a stutterer, cannot quite imagine how bad that would be to go one sentence without stuttering on every syllable.
However, that's not the reason for my post. 10 days ago or so I went back to my home in Germany from university (which is in England). And let's just say I've noticed something quite interesting. Back in England I would think about my stutter, its constraints, its possible effects on the people surrounding me, the role it plays etc. I would also stutter quite often, at least once every two sentences, usually once a sentence. Which is originally why I decided to create this blog, partially as it was a good place for me to vent. Now! I'm back home and I'm noticing that I stutter maybe once every six sentences or so. Now this is most surprising to me because:
- I usually stutter more at home with my parents than with my friends.
- I'm stuttering less with my parents than with my friends back in England.
- This is the most fluent I've been in easily over a year.
I can't quite understand why, but this all kind of struck me last night when I was meeting some old friends and I had a block. The first one in hours. Hours! And I got over that block in no time! Shortly after the block my stutter came to my attention and I stammered the next sentence out but after that it was fine. Possible reasons?
- Was in a comfortable situation.
- I was smoking shisha (hookah) at the time which relaxes me so maybe that? I wasn't drinking alcohol though.
- Not thinking about my stutter as much.
- For you spiritualists out there, it was a full mooon! oooOOOooo
Would love to hear any of your thoughts as to why I'm so fluent all of a sudden or if you've had similar encouters.
P.S. This isn't like a period where I stutter less than usual, this is quite a drastic improvement - or least I like to think so.
1 comment:
This is more about your whole blog than this post... I don't stutter much anymore. I'm a grad student, and did two fluent lectures a day for a room of freshmen, three times per week for a whole year.
But can I say my name or answer the phone? No (sigh). Stress makes things worse too. Anyway, nice blog!
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